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Beatrice
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here's a thought. just crossed my mind that it's friday eve and i'm here...
when i was in high school i was so depressed by sitting alone at home friday evening/night. i couldn't concentrate on anything else but thinking how depressed i am about the situation.
now i sit at home and care about nothing.
i'm not sure which one is sadder... feeling pain or feeling nothing :\
So many people say they would rather feel pain than be numb. I don't understand that. I would choose to be numb any day. In fact, lately I have been feeling more numb than anything else and I love it - at least, compared to how I was feeling before. I would often get so upset that I couldn't focus on schoolwork, couldn't do anything, just sit and cry and be miserable. When I'm miserably numb, I can actually still sort of function, even if I don't feel wonderful inside.
But that's just me, of course. It's weird in my opinion.