emilydude
New member
Hi. Um, I'm new to the board. Actually I only found this site about a half hour ago, but I've always been a fast mover so I'm posting already. :wink:
I'm not entirely sure why I'm here.
I'm 21. I was first diagnosed as social phobic when I was 13. But, you see... I'm better now. Apparently.
I'm still very shy and hesitant to do things and interact with people, but... I'm better. When I was 19 I came of the meds and since then I've started college (which is great considering I never went to school - literally), I've worked and travelled in the US... I've got myself a life.
The world thinks I'm better.
The world is wrong. When I go out I still get the sweaty palms and the racing heartbeat. I still see the people stare at me, hear the laughter. I still feel the paralysis when I'm put in the centre of people's attention. I still get the mad impulse to run away from... everyone.
I never got better. I just learned to hide it better.
I guess I'm just wondering do other people feel this way? I guess I'm just afraid I'll never really be better.
I'm not entirely sure why I'm here.
I'm 21. I was first diagnosed as social phobic when I was 13. But, you see... I'm better now. Apparently.
I'm still very shy and hesitant to do things and interact with people, but... I'm better. When I was 19 I came of the meds and since then I've started college (which is great considering I never went to school - literally), I've worked and travelled in the US... I've got myself a life.
The world thinks I'm better.
The world is wrong. When I go out I still get the sweaty palms and the racing heartbeat. I still see the people stare at me, hear the laughter. I still feel the paralysis when I'm put in the centre of people's attention. I still get the mad impulse to run away from... everyone.
I never got better. I just learned to hide it better.
I guess I'm just wondering do other people feel this way? I guess I'm just afraid I'll never really be better.