PixieNadrienne
Member
Hey guys. I'm Pixie, 28, and I've had social anxiety for most of my life, since before I even started school. It was pretty obvious, looking back, but strangely nobody noticed until I was bullied from the age of 12-14 about my appearance (and everything in between), and started skipping school until I dropped out at only 14 years old. I then became sort of agoraphobic, wouldn't leave the house for three years except for some appointments. A number of mental health professionals came to my home to see me, I was extremely dark and depressed. Lost all of my friends, except one. She's still my best friend now. Just before I turned 17 I started going out again, but I was never able to go out on my own or be anywhere in public by myself, and I still struggle with that. I don't know if that makes me agoraphobic or not. I shake and stumble and feel really lost and confused when I'm somewhere on my own, and I felt that way at school a lot, too. All the roots are from childhood, I now realise, but I don't know what to do about that. All treatments I've tried over the years have failed for the most part.
So that's my story in a nutshell. I've been on a number of forums but I struggle to stick around. Even online interaction is hard these days. I don't work, I live with my parents as I'm still quite dependent and I see myself as still a child, emotionally and psychology. I have general anxiety and don't handle life very well. I also have a chronic illness which causes me a huge amount of fear and stress, and I'm getting that tested right now. My dream is to be free of the illness, and to become an adult woman, no longer a kid! My name, by the way, is about my fantasy self/alter ago, Adrienne. I forgot to say I'm a maladaptive daydreamer! Adrienne is who I wish I could learn to be. To an extent, at least.
I've waffled on enough. Hopefully I'll see you around. :bigsmile:
So that's my story in a nutshell. I've been on a number of forums but I struggle to stick around. Even online interaction is hard these days. I don't work, I live with my parents as I'm still quite dependent and I see myself as still a child, emotionally and psychology. I have general anxiety and don't handle life very well. I also have a chronic illness which causes me a huge amount of fear and stress, and I'm getting that tested right now. My dream is to be free of the illness, and to become an adult woman, no longer a kid! My name, by the way, is about my fantasy self/alter ago, Adrienne. I forgot to say I'm a maladaptive daydreamer! Adrienne is who I wish I could learn to be. To an extent, at least.
I've waffled on enough. Hopefully I'll see you around. :bigsmile: