I don't want to be mean, bitter, angry, fearful and distrustful all my life.
My new Blackberry keeps flashing a red light at me. It's pissing me off.
Lemur in a hat
Lemur in a hat
I'm afraid.. Because I feel judged even at my own house. I want to escape, I just want to be myself, yesterday I needed to go on a photograph, and I got comments that I needed to wear make up, I just wish I could just be whatever I wanna be! And I feel so terrified of being myself, because everyone would hate me.
Why did I watch that? Did I really think it would make me feel better? Well OK, there was the uplifting aspect of seeing it, but overall I should have known that it would make me feel worse, not better.
Of course I'll still do exactly the same thing next time......
Did you watch that Rebecca Black video on youtube again?