How are you feeling?

[DeadmanWalking]

Depressed, irritated, whatever.

My sister (who is eight years older than me, married, has a kid and a place of her own) is going to Disneyland for the zillionth time in her life with her family and her incredibly stuck-up in-laws. She's been posting pictures and bragging on Facebook all day about it. Needless to say, I'm jealous. I'm also incredibly irritated with her because she ALWAYS gets what she wants. It's always been this way, even when we were kids growing up. No matter what, she would have everything handed to her. Of course her husband spoils her rotten, as well. He's a piece of sh*t, but that's another story. I'm just generally sick of her always getting whatever she wants whenever she wants it. She wanted a new car? Got it. Wants to randomly take a trip? Gets to. Wants a new phone because the one she just got wasn't good enough for her? Got it. Wants a new, updated iPod? Got it. And it's not like she works hard and earns money to get all of these things. Her husband got really lucky and landed a job at the railroad and makes decent money. She sits on her arse all day at work in front of a computer. Yeah, I don't work, so I shouldn't talk. But still. She's a b*tch and I'm pissed off. I'd go into this further, but why bother? It's pointless, making me more angry and this is a forum, not my diary.

It's a forum indeed, but this is also a place where you can get things off of your chest. Don't hold in emotions, okay? Don't be afraid to post how you feel on here, no matter how long it is.

As for your sister, well, the only advice I can think of is to not focus on her so much. Let her show off if she wants to. You'll get your time to go do whatever you want to, so work on improving yourself. I'm sorry you have to go through this.

 

[LadyWench]

Thanks for your concern, MikeyC. I did not get the same treatment growing up, no. My mum always favored her, along with my grandmother (until she passed away, of course). She also has friends that she treats like crap most of the time and is two-faced to, yet they always give her everything she wants and they kiss her arse all the time. It's frustrating. She and I were KIND OF close a long time ago, but definitely not anymore. Especially after she got married and had a kid. That's understandable, but she just turned into a snob and acts like she's better than everyone. She goes on trips out of town all the time and gets expensive clothing, dines at nice restaurants, etc. To be honest, I don't want anything to do with her anymore. And it isn't just because I'm jealous of her life, but she's a major c*nt in other ways and I cannot stand her husband.

 

[Lexington]

Think I've picked up another virus....

 

[LadyWench]

It's a forum indeed, but this is also a place where you can get things off of your chest. Don't hold in emotions, okay? Don't be afraid to post how you feel on here, no matter how long it is.

As for your sister, well, the only advice I can think of is to not focus on her so much. Let her show off if she wants to. You'll get your time to go do whatever you want to, so work on improving yourself. I'm sorry you have to go through this.

Thank you for your kind words. It is much appreciated! I'm glad that I can express my emotions on this site, but I also sometimes feel like I should hold back. It's not like my problems are so dire, ya know? There are people out there that have it much worse, and here I am, whining and complaining about my rotten sister. I've never been close with my family, so I guess certain things about them bother me a lot.

Thanks again, I will do my best to not focus on her.

 

[Iluv]

Thank you for your kind words. It is much appreciated! I'm glad that I can express my emotions on this site, but I also sometimes feel like I should hold back. It's not like my problems are so dire, ya know? There are people out there that have it much worse, and here I am, whining and complaining about my rotten sister. I've never been close with my family, so I guess certain things about them bother me a lot.

Thanks again, I will do my best to not focus on her.

If you ever need somebody to talk directly to I'm here. I understand, I always felt like my brother got the favoured treatment. Never bottle up your emotions, if you do then they'll just cause problems.

 

[MikeyC]

Thanks for your concern, MikeyC. I did not get the same treatment growing up, no. My mum always favored her, along with my grandmother (until she passed away, of course). She also has friends that she treats like crap most of the time and is two-faced to, yet they always give her everything she wants and they kiss her arse all the time. It's frustrating. She and I were KIND OF close a long time ago, but definitely not anymore. Especially after she got married and had a kid. That's understandable, but she just turned into a snob and acts like she's better than everyone. She goes on trips out of town all the time and gets expensive clothing, dines at nice restaurants, etc. To be honest, I don't want anything to do with her anymore. And it isn't just because I'm jealous of her life, but she's a major c*nt in other ways and I cannot stand her husband.

Some people have that effect: they treat you like crap, but you keep going back. That has happened to me more recently than I'd like to admit, although now I am seeing the light.

Siblings grow apart, which can be natural, but it's unfortunate she has turned into such a snob. You sound really angry about this. Is there a part of you that wants to reconnect?

 

[LadyWench]

If you ever need somebody to talk directly to I'm here. I understand, I always felt like my brother got the favoured treatment. Never bottle up your emotions, if you do then they'll just cause problems.

Thank you. That's really sweet of you. The same goes to you! If you ever need someone to talk or vent to, I'm here. And you're right, bottling up emotions is never good. I'm usually pretty outspoken (online, not in person), but that's usually when I'm talking about certain opinions on things and such. When it comes to my feelings on personal issues, I don't want to sound like an attention wh*re or like my life is so horrible, because it's not. I'm just a crybaby.

Some people have that effect: they treat you like crap, but you keep going back. That has happened to me more recently than I'd like to admit, although now I am seeing the light.

Siblings grow apart, which can be natural, but it's unfortunate she has turned into such a snob. You sound really angry about this. Is there a part of you that wants to reconnect?

Thank you for understanding. It means a lot. I'm glad you are now seeing the light and can perhaps change things. I tend to hold grudges and when I'm upset over something pretty drastic (in my eyes), I hold on to those feelings. I need to learn to just let go. I would actually like to reconnect with my sister, mainly because it'd be nice to have a sister again. But I know that isn't going to happen. I think I will just have to accept it.

 

[MikeyC]

Thank you for understanding. It means a lot. I'm glad you are now seeing the light and can perhaps change things. I tend to hold grudges and when I'm upset over something pretty drastic (in my eyes), I hold on to those feelings. I need to learn to just let go. I would actually like to reconnect with my sister, mainly because it'd be nice to have a sister again. But I know that isn't going to happen. I think I will just have to accept it.

Things are already changing in that way. I realised how toxic this girl is. But anyway, this is not about me. It would be nice to hear you reconnected with your sister again, but if she's about to have a baby and her husband is not nice, it'll be hard for you to do that. Having a baby means you'll be an aunt so that could mean more visits from her.

My brother and I have grown apart recently, too, with my depression being a major contributor to that. It's just how it is sometimes.

 

[LadyWench]

Things are already changing in that way. I realised how toxic this girl is. But anyway, this is not about me. It would be nice to hear you reconnected with your sister again, but if she's about to have a baby and her husband is not nice, it'll be hard for you to do that. Having a baby means you'll be an aunt so that could mean more visits from her.

My brother and I have grown apart recently, too, with my depression being a major contributor to that. It's just how it is sometimes.

That's a shame, but I am glad to hear that you are learning that this person is not good for you. I'm also sorry to hear about you and your brother. That's really unfortunate. Why do you think your depression has contributed to that? My issues have contributed to my sister and I, as well. She isn't supportive at all and just doesn't understand it.

Actually, she isn't pregnant. I probably wrote it wrong, I apologize. My niece is five years old. I rarely get to see her, but I of course care about her.

 

[Shyangel]

@ it's okay to talk about your feelings lady watch. ^.^ I certainly don't mind.

@Mikey

Hi, Mikey!! ^.^

What's been happening with you?

I'm sorry to hear some girl is giving you trouble. Try not to let her bother you, Mikey. There are plenty of women in the world that would love to get with you I'm sure, you just don't see them.

 

[this_portrait]

Feeling pretty calm right now. Coffee is further enhancing that feeling.

 

[LadyWench]

Thank you, Shyangel.

 

[MikeyC]

That's a shame, but I am glad to hear that you are learning that this person is not good for you. I'm also sorry to hear about you and your brother. That's really unfortunate. Why do you think your depression has contributed to that? My issues have contributed to my sister and I, as well. She isn't supportive at all and just doesn't understand it.

Actually, she isn't pregnant. I probably wrote it wrong, I apologize. My niece is five years old. I rarely get to see her, but I of course care about her.

It's all good. My depression makes me speak to my family less and less. My mother in particular has been a major contributor to some of my feelings and I've been living here far too long. My brother is a nice person at the age of 24 he's really got some goals he's striving to achieve, which is nice for him, but that leaves less room for a brother who doesn't talk to him too much. Sorry to hear your sister is unsupportive.

I would imagine you do care about her, elevated by the fact that visits are infrequent.

Hi, Mikey!! ^.^

What's been happening with you?

I'm sorry to hear some girl is giving you trouble. Try not to let her bother you, Mikey. There are plenty of women in the world that would love to get with you I'm sure, you just don't see them.

You're right, I don't see them. They all hide from me. Heh, but yeah, don't worry about this girl. My friend and I have a joke about how she'll hang out with everyone except me and the excuses she uses are juvenile at best. It's comical now but deep down the constant rejection isn't helping.

 

[BlackPuma]

Yay! I'm so glad the kitty made it back safely! By what you said, it doesn't sound like he/she is going to do that again. I really hope not at least.

I'll make sure of that. That door is going to be spammed with signs saying people should close it properly.

If that doesn't work, I'll teach them Closing Doors 101.. with my foot.

 

[WeirdyMcGee]

nauseous. general body pain.

 

[Iluv]

nauseous. general body pain.

You're not alone, my whole body hurts so bad. ::

 

[LadyWench]

It's all good. My depression makes me speak to my family less and less. My mother in particular has been a major contributor to some of my feelings and I've been living here far too long. My brother is a nice person at the age of 24 he's really got some goals he's striving to achieve, which is nice for him, but that leaves less room for a brother who doesn't talk to him too much. Sorry to hear your sister is unsupportive.

I would imagine you do care about her, elevated by the fact that visits are infrequent.

I'm really sorry to hear that. I definitely sympathize with you. Depression can make a person just not want to interact with others and avoid socializing altogether. I'm like that at times, as well. It's a shame that these issues contribute to so many other problems in our lives.

 

[MikeyC]

I'm really sorry to hear that. I definitely sympathize with you. Depression can make a person just not want to interact with others and avoid socializing altogether. I'm like that at times, as well. It's a shame that these issues contribute to so many other problems in our lives.

Yeah, absolutely. You and I are in the same boat, it seems. It's never a good thing but hopefully we can move past it.

 

[LadyWench]

Yeah, absolutely. You and I are in the same boat, it seems. It's never a good thing but hopefully we can move past it.

Well, the circumstances are not good, but it's always nice to know there are others out there that can relate. I do hope things get better and we can both move on.

 

[Shyangel]

You're right, I don't see them. They all hide from me. Heh, but yeah, don't worry about this girl. My friend and I have a joke about how she'll hang out with everyone except me and the excuses she uses are juvenile at best. It's comical now but deep down the constant rejection isn't helping.

I don't believe that. You seem like a nice warm guy, I would think, if anything, you draw people to you. Seriously, that's hard for me to believe.
That's so strange. I wonder why she doesn't want to hang out with you. It sounds like the reasons she comes up with are entertaining, though. I think she's silly, and is the one who should be feeling bad, because she's missing out.

Alright. I'm gonna go eat!!! Yes!! FOOOOD!! lol