I am crying. I don't want this ****ing life and ****ing destiny anymore. What have I done to deserve this, why was I born like crippled idiot without possibility to change? I have enough of living like homeless beggar spending my "life" in dark cellars without any close people like all others. I see this life should be a punishment for something (can't explain it otherwise), but why don't I even have the right to know what it is??
I hear ya, I feel the same way... Trapped like a caged animal, in a world that holds us hostage because of our disorder's.... with no relief from this nightmare in sight... Just like the movie Matrix, and I want to take the RED pill and wake up from this nightmare, and start living a normal healthy life filled with friends and relationships and especially romance..... <sigh>
How am I? F...ing panicked, anxious, stressed.. I am having full house of guests..just want them to go away. It'sad..they are all ok people..but anyway. So I am hiding in my room, what a great life..
I know how you feel.. my brother keeps bringing his girlfriend here and I can't leave my room because I don't want to blush for no reason in front of here and look strange.