pathetic and worthless.
Drained of all energy and motivation.
Unimportant
Worried and kind of pathetic. :/
Okay, life has been so crazy recently, life has thrown so many hurdles at me, some I have stupidly walked into and only have myself to blame. But I keep picking myself up regardless and dusting myself off.
My detox was hell, they messed my medication half way through, which set me back about two weeks of pain and withdrawals. But I have learnt I am a stubborn ass when I set my mind to something.
Now this detox has finished, I thought I would feel better, but I don't really, it's nice not to be a slave to a medication/substitute, but there is now a gaping hole In my life... it's like now what? I'm trying to see this as an opportunity though, to fill that gap with more positive things, or apply my stubborn nature to beating my problems.
Weird and uncomfortable. Used Skype for the first time today. I haven't stopped thinking about it since. I was fine after using it a little while, and now I feel like I can never do it again. :/ I've had tons of exposure this weekend too, and that definitely doesn't help. Too many social things at once. I need a break.
^ Yeah I definitely need a break. I still have a party to go to today. D: But once I am done with that, I think I'm shutting myself in the house for a few days.This is good - but you can burn out, social/exposure overload, we all need to go our own pace and it's like anything you work on, no one does a 200m dash right off the bat or run 5 miles - you build up - you did a lot, be proud of what you've done, using Skype is big. Take a break, but force yourself after you feel ready again, it's easy to slide back into avoiding again, don't =) Good job, Phoenixx, lucky bloke who got to see you on Skype
Weird and uncomfortable. Used Skype for the first time today. I haven't stopped thinking about it since. I was fine after using it a little while, and now I feel like I can never do it again. :/ I've had tons of exposure this weekend too, and that definitely doesn't help. Too many social things at once. I need a break.
^ Don't be sorry, it's not your fault! I'm glad I got to use Skype. I was really nervous at first, but after about the first 30 mins. I was fine. It was just afterwards I just had this weird feeling. It's just that I've been too exposed this weekend. Don't blame yourself. I just need to relax.Oh Marley, I'm sorry ::
Oh Marley, I'm sorry ::
I'm feeling really defeated. i don't know why i even try.
^ Don't be sorry, it's not your fault! I'm glad I got to use Skype. I was really nervous at first, but after about the first 30 mins. I was fine. It was just afterwards I just had this weird feeling. It's just that I've been too exposed this weekend. Don't blame yourself. I just need to relax.
i feel like, if i dont have something nice to say.. i dont want to say anything at all.