Lavinialuna
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I've had a really bad night. I feel exhausted, weepy and overwhelmed.
I've had a really bad night. I feel exhausted, weepy and overwhelmed.
Still exhausted, and now bloated, too! Hooray! Both my wallet and my bathroom scale keep telling me I eat too much. Why do I never listen? :sad:
On the plus side, I just sniped a sweet little vintage knife on eBay, so I feel pretty good about that.
I'm complicated. So sue me. :idontknow:
#anxiety
#hyperventriloquate
hyperventriloquate? *hugs*
Thanks. LOL it's from Goonies
I don't know where all of this anxiety is coming from... probably need to exercise.
Ah got a "Congratulations for talkin' for yerself" compliment from ma sister today because ah did most of the talkin' durin' ma hospital appointment yesterday. So why do ah feel like ah'm being patronised? :kickingmyself:
If there is one thing I have learned..that would be.. nobody has to put up with someone elses crude remarks and belittlement.
I know these people are your family, but you can only turn the cheek so many times and be beat down. The only person who can decide whether they ( your family) are worth it or not is you. I can tell you.. me and my sister have not spoken for years. Do you think I would invite her back into my life after all of the hateful, small things, no appreciation, being used crap that had to put up with. I did the best thing I could ever do back then " Just walk away" and I have no regrets because my life is already so full of turmoil and BS and I don't need just that one more person in it to mess it up worse than things are. I feel the same way about friendships too. If people only think of themselves and you are not part of their world, then I don't see the friendship existing. I have walked away from a few of those too. I'm sorry if what I just said has been too harsh, but one person can only deal with so much before they end up feeling like this....:veryangry:
Fed up. :veryangry:
It has been a very irritating day.
"Och, ye get use to 'em after 10 years or so", he said, sarcastically, in a deadpan tone of voice.
Not harsh at all, darlin'. Ah can relate to what ya just said...
It's just make the situation I'm in all the more difficult. Since ma mum constantly sides wi' ma older sister when we argue. I get the "...but she love you" guilty trip and ma sister play the victim because "everybuddy's always pick on her". Classic Münchausen syndrome by proxy, if ye ask me. Though, ah always get talked intae doin' stuff for ma family, gotta please 'em. Keep 'em around despite how ah feel aboot 'em.
And I get the "keep the peace" excuse so I have nae choice but to keep ma mouth shut.
Ah mean, I wanted her outta ma life a few years ago but never got ma way. Ironically, ma mum was more than pleased tae tell ma dad to bugger off when ah hud got to a point where ah couldn't take it anymore and had freakin' emotional breakdown.
Considering how ma immediate family treat me, they're not worth it. But as typical wi' most dyfunctional relationships ah'm stick in a vicious cycle. Also ma cerebal palsy makes me more reliant upon them - so ah cannae win, really.
I am sorry to hear that your folks treat you that way.
Some people have no empathy for others.
Nobody deserves to be treated differently even if they are different.. you have to remember though.. people who are different are special people.. keep your chin up :thumbup: