lol. ANXIOUS! ><
I was invited to a party by my friend. I think he really wants me to go, but I don't know. We used to "date" kinda. And it was awkward then.. And it's awkward now, cause we haven't hung out in forever, and he has a girlfriend now. And it's a halloween party, and apparently me and his girlfriend are both dressing up as pirates. And the only person who makes me feel half calm, isn't going to be there for part of the night, so I can't rely on them to help me keep my mind calm. I'm scared. I want to go to the party though. My costume is cool!! lol When I think about going, what makes me feel somewhat okay is thinking.. "I'm just gonna go help my friend with her costume, and then leave! and then I don't have to hang out with my other friend and his girlfriend alone" That makes me POSSIBLY able to GET there.. but stay there, I don't know. God damnit. I hate it. I wish I was totally cool and calm and collected with social interactions. :x