Sometimes I think that my mind makes up false fears. I don't know if I can ever understand others, I don't feel much friendship with a friend of mine (lately) because of many reasons, but yesterday she came to meet me along with her sister. She was her usual self like she was before. Recently we met very few times and talked very less. I was beginning to feel she didn't care about me but yesterday it was different.
This makes me think, am I making up things, believing things that don't exist ! It doesn't mean I feel like before with her but I think if we meet more things will get better. I don't think she knows how I feel. It is very very alone life for me and I don't want to lose just a few people I have as friends in my real life.
I am tired of trying to ease my loneliness. It is one of the worst feelings.