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  1. Foxglove

    Do you ever feel like you're invisible?

    I do. People just seem to overlook me. People cut in front of me in line when I go shopping, sales personnel act like they don't see me. When I am out with my husband, people we know will greet him and chat with him, and act like I am not there. I am really puzzled and hurt by this. And...
  2. Foxglove

    Does this happen to you?

    This is something I really hate: I walk down the street, or in a store, and see somebody I know. They see me, too. But, they always wait for me to greet them first. Yes, I know, someone has to make the first move, but why does it always have to be me? I feel that this puts me at a...
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    Fist of Zen on MTV

    Have any of you seen this program? It's hilarious. You can see clips of it on YouTube (sorry, I don't know how to do the link thing).
  4. Foxglove

    I just wish I were dead

    I know that writing this is just stupid and childish and unproductive, but I have nowhere or nobody else to say this to. I just can't take it any more. My whole life is made up of fear, guilt, anxiety and tedium. I am constantly making awful decisions which make my life worse than it already...
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    Anyone here like pro wrestling?

    I guess a lot of people think it's weird, but I really enjoy watching pro wrestling. My favorites are Triple H, Jeff Hardy and Edge.
  6. Foxglove

    My doctor is such a jerk!

    Every three months, I have to go to my doctor to pick up a new prescription for my medication. And every time he manages to insult me. Every time he asks me stuff like "Are you STILL a housewife?" and "what do you DO all day?" and "Are you REALLY satisfied being a housewife?" Like being a...
  7. Foxglove

    rotten luck

    I needed to go to two different doctors to pick up prescriptions. Today, I finally got up the nerve to do it, and what happens? One doctor's office is closed (even tho they are usually open at this time), and at the other doctor's office there was no place to park. I guess that wouldn't be a...
  8. Foxglove

    Constant comparison of myself to others

    I have always had the habit of comparing myself to other people (women). And 99% of the time I come up short. When I am at home and look in the mirror, I don't think I look so bad, and sometimes, not often, I even think I look pretty good. But the minute I have to go somewhere in public...
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    Do you over-analyze things you say?

    Whenever I force myself to overcome my reluctance to socialize, I always end up analyzing everything I said when I think about it later. Things like "Oh God, I shouldn't have said that!", or "They probably thought I'm a complete idiot", or "Why didn't I say . . . ." With all the agonizing over...
  10. Foxglove

    Is SP hereditary?

    I live in fear that my son will inherit my mental problems. My parents are both pretty messed up. They are both depressed, and I have never known either of them to have friends. They were abusive to me. When I look at my background, I have no doubt that that is a major contribution as to why...
  11. Foxglove

    Are there any other moms here?

    I would be interested to hear from other SP sufferers who also happen to be mothers. My son is 10, and I often feel guilty that I can't offer him the kind of social opportunities that he should have.
  12. Foxglove

    Can years of social isolation and antidepressants ...

    make you stupid? It's like I can feel myself getting dumber and more slow-witted every day. Before my SP got to be as bad as it is now, I used to work and socialize with others, more or less. I felt then that I was reasonably intelligent and clever. Now I feel like I can't even speak a...
  13. Foxglove

    Do any of you work at home?

    I would be very interested in doing typing or data-entry work from my computer at home. Since I am so scared of interacting with others, and scared to go places, my best option would be to work from home. I've visited several websites dedicated to this subject, but they've all seemed like...
  14. Foxglove

    Why do people always look at me weird?

    I have the feeling that people are always looking at me weird. I feel totally paranoid, that maybe my eye makeup is smeared, or that I have a big stain on my clothes, or I have a booger hanging out of my nose, or whatever. It is such an uncomfortable feeling that I sometimes have to literally...
  15. Foxglove

    no friends at all - normal?

    I am 42 years, female, and haven't had a female friend since I was 12. Does this make me a freak? I just cannot tolerate being around anyone. When I am forced to have contact with others (my son's school, my husband's friends), I feel so awful afterwards that I cry for hours and cut myself...
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